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2010

2010-01-26T21:04:00.002+08:00

A month almost passes in this new year....a new year that doesn't feel 'new' anymore.
I haven't go into a motivated self, haven't able to feel promising abt my career, haven't got a clear clue how to be better ... better in career, in life, in ministry, in friendship, .... i just have to keep remindig myself don't slip further.

Xmas Cards

2009-12-02T22:13:00.002+08:00

I posted some publications to my sister last Sat, and in it I also attached 2 little Christmas cards for my two nieces. Tdy they have received it & the 2 girls were so happy abt it !?!? I never thought this little gesture will bring them joy...and it also bring me joy in knowing they're happy !

Sometimes, i think...we are too lazy to extend a little of our appreciation, love, concern to our love ones. Why huh? I think most of the time we think it is unnecessary, no need lah, maybe ppl wont appreciate it...etc. But, it does matter. We should remind ourself not to be stingy is extending what we can, not being lazy, and not asking/expecting for rewards if we do so. The joy we bring to others will also come back to us.

Have u send out any xmas cards this year?

Oh no ! It's December !

2009-12-01T22:00:00.003+08:00

Gosh ! It's yead end again ! Time fliiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiieeeeeeeeesssss !!!

I'm brain dead these days :( Cannot cook a thing out from it for my assignments !!!! Heeeelp !!!!!

2009 CNY

2009-01-28T22:57:00.002+08:00

2009 CNY come and gone. It was such a quiet and boring CNY ! Since when CNY mood has changed so much ?!? I felt sad for my nephew couldn't experience a real happy Chinese New Year. Gone are the days where a house is full of children and many families celebrating under one roof. Today, worst still if u are in a foreign land and not in your kampung, u are the only family with no relatives staying in the same land as u are. U only have one kid. There is no celebration but just holidays. U just stay at home watching tv, tv watching u. U dunno what to do. What CNY ?

Sigh......

Happy Birthday

2008-06-17T22:49:00.003+08:00

Today is my b'day :) I haven't been celebrating b'day for so long, and actually didn't quite remember it when my b'day was approaching until yesterday.

Yesterday my division secretary came to my place & asked if tomorrow is my b'day ? From her it reminded me that it is my b'day ! A nice surprise to me when she handed me a bottle of sweets from our division big-big boss ! How thoughtful of this boss ! Btw, our whole division (i think) has at least 60++. A lesson to learn: a generous boss shows her thoughfulness & care on staffs, a gesture as a leader huh !?!

I have my other surprises when i received well wishes sms from some friends...it really made my days ! Never thought that these friends remembered my b'day !!! A lesson to learn: a simple well wishes o your friends show that you still remember them and let them know that he/she still in your mind although we might not have spoken to each other for some time. How nice !!!

My new colleagues, generously bought me lunch today ! TQ teams !

Friends are good !! Treasure all your friends :)

Thank you my dear friends ! May God blesses you all !

Merry 2007 Christmas !

2007-12-26T16:50:00.000+08:00

This year Christmas came and went without much exciting...for me.
I missed last year Christmas where once a life time my whole family was able to get together.
This year, me alone in pj. Attended church celebration on 25th morning; i have missed last 2 years church celebration, so i decided to stay in town...at least to show some support to my church. This year my church having the celebration in one of the community hall; we managed to achieve our bold 500 attendees! God is indeed a good & generous God!
Dunno since when, i am not exciting to this "important" festive..... i just find it too commercialized even if is a church celebration. I prefer small & closed 'celebration' inside a church & not in a big hall or hotel. Sigh..... next year celebration will fall on my hand, i am now scratching my head how to make it different & meaningful !

Anyway, this the best season in a year. Wishing all a blessing Christmas !!!!!

Health going down at 40 ?!

2007-10-28T17:20:00.000+08:00

Aging is a phenomenon everyone will have to go through. When u are in your 20s 'aging' is not in your dictionary. U maybe still fit & healthy in your 30s, but when u approaching the big 4...somehow u started to feel it 'not right'. Putting aside the look, u just cannot compare your stamina with a 20s something when u are in ..say gym. I knew it becoz i've been through it....ahem, actually starting to go through this 'phenomenon'.

I guess we human just never learn. When we're healthy we never think that it is necessary to take any extra steps to maintain our good health, or to do something to our health so that we can delay our aging process. Worst still if one only realize the importance when something happened.

So, what do i need to do now since i am in my big 4? I have no choice, since i am now facing the 'aging phenomenon', i'm starting to take supplements...i just hope although maybe is a bit late but never too late...right ?

Friends, let's start a healthy lifestyles now !

My poor eyes!

2007-10-21T23:10:00.000+08:00

I got that 'mysterious virus' attack again ! Since the first time i got it about 5 years back, it just keep coming back attacking my eyes..again !!!! The very first time i got it i thought it was becoz of old-age catching up...but my eye vision had been inconsistently ok & not ok. Only when the optician had a closed-look on it & adviced me to go for eye-check that i realized it had some kind of virus in my eyes ! Sigh ...... no one will deny eyes are an important part of our body. I really felt miserable about this. The worst thing is even doctor dunno why in the first place how i can caught on this virus-thing. I just hope that it will permanently be cured this time...again.

Take care of your eyes.

Life start at 40

2007-09-24T18:52:00.000+08:00

Hmm......somehow at this age there is a 'turning point' for me.....

(1) Quited my job & decided to gayang kaki a while

(2) Attended 3 weeks course in PG....and decided to take my course seriously, so i opt to take credits and suddenly get myself back to study !!!! No play-play man !!!!

(3) Went for blood test that i dont normally do on yearly basis. But becoz this is the BIG 4 years, i think i better go check-check & see got anything sudah rosak or need further maintenance. Whew ! Results turn out everything OK ! Meaning i can continue to take my coffee everyday, a bit of nasi lemak is no harm, but some exercise will be good :)

(4) Cannot continue goyang kaki forever right ..... so i start some freelancing...i can work from home!!!! Yahoooooooo!!!! No need wake up early & chg into office attire.....lega-nya !!!!

(5) My life not that 'wasting' wan..... now i have the "luxury" to start my day with God's word...oh dear, this is soooo wonderful ! Am glad able to stop my footsteps, have time to reflect & re-examine myself. Guess this is really important for everyone to have this time alone.

I pray that my life after 40 is more exciting that ever.
I pray that God will equip me for his ministry.
I pray that I'm closer to God & can serve him better.
I pray that I'm becoming a better, more caring, and sensitive person.
I pray that my friendship with my two good-good friends remain forever.

Jobless to Freelance

2007-09-23T22:10:00.000+08:00

This the 2nd time i'm not working. I could only say i'm lucky able to have the luxury to put down my job and take a break for a while. It's indeed a breeze to have a break after years of working, especially if u are constantly working under pressures.

After 'jobless' for two months, i started with my first ever freelance job. I got a mini project, i got a consultant work. The nicest part of being freelance is that you can work from home and need not work everyday. When i'm not working (for $$$) I do my other stuffs. How nice i dont have to wake up early, change into office attire, and join the crowd on the road!!! Whew !!! BUT...the not-so-good part is that u dont have a fixed income.

Well, i'm not sure how long i can have this luxury...one just have to work right? Let's enjoy while i still can...i know i have to get back to work...but what's the hurry huh ?!?

Lazy

2007-09-23T22:07:00.000+08:00

Is there a way cure 'laziness'?
I've been work-free since June, but.....just too lazy to write anything here.
Always envy ppl can write so well & natural...i'm "speechless"......

Wait ah.... i'm waiting for some inspiration..... :)

After Freeeeeeeeeeee..................

2007-06-20T16:45:00.000+08:00

Finally ! I have break-free from my work burden ! Whew !

It really do feel good :) It's even better as i can still get pay this month for just working less than 5 days :) Well...... i will worry later about next month. As of now, i just wanna do what i wanna do.

Hip Hip Hooray !

Break free !

2007-06-06T23:33:00.000+08:00

Finally ! Yes ! I'm off ! Off with no end as of now :)
My mind refuse to think further, to plan what's next....
I just wanna do whatever I feel like right now ......
Let me have a break first & worry later ... :)
Whew !..........U envy ? Ha! Ha! Ha!

My farewell 'speech'

2007-06-06T23:28:00.000+08:00

Dear Fellow Firiumese,

Thanks! Thanks! Thanks! Thanks!

To Firium who has given me opportunity to work with !
To crazy sales folks who has shown me the true color of sales man !
To young-hot-blooded-guys who can crack all codes !
To young-pretty-sweet-smart-gals who have added spice to young-hot-blooded-guys !
To leng-ma who not only 'leng' but are so capable...and fierce !
To folks who have endured my insensitive words! Sorry x3 !
To folks who have been patient with me! Thanks x4
To ALL: I have learnt much in my life journey!
I will surely miss you guys & gals :)
I will surely meet you all again !
So, there is no good-bye but just sign-off from Firium...for now...but will sign-in again in different mode .....
It's my turn to take a break....wait for your turn.....maybe 10 years later when u have worked enough :)

Take care & all the best!

What's next ?

2007-05-27T17:23:00.000+08:00

My official sign off from my company is getting nearer....i'm looking forward to the day !
However, I have yet knowing myself what to do ?!?!?
I know I wanna ....

Sleep in late
Time to read whatever
Travel
Sit in a cafe with a magazine/book on hand, watching those ppl passing by rushing to work...whereas i'm sipping my coffee !!!!!!!!! Ha! Ha! Ha! Ha! It's my turn now !!!!

Before break.....

2007-04-18T22:17:00.000+08:00

Before the break....another 2 months to come....oooh i m so looking forward to .... what have i done/achieved so far ? It's scary to think that half a year passed without 'achieving' anything !?!?!!? Let's see, I HAVE:

Taken up (coming to) 3 theology courses (yeah ! yeah !)
Started (finally) teaching (better term is 'share') for "new believers" in church (scary !)
Bought (Finally !) a new notebook for myself (yahoo !!!)
Discontinue as children sunday school teacher (sigh...i just not there yet)
to be continue ....

i m hoping my list can go longer for the next 2 months ......more positive than negative achievements....

Need a break

2007-04-08T21:47:00.000+08:00

Time flies ! After a fruitful Christmas, peaceful CNY, what follow just work, work work :(
I'm looking forward for the day where i dont have to work & can have a break...for a while.
Maybe i will for for a holiday...somewhere i never been to.
Can't wait to have a break now.

M P H Warehouse Sales

2007-03-04T21:00:00.000+08:00

I (finally) went to the M P H warehouse sales on Sat morning. Although i was considered an early bird, it was lucky for me to find a parking at roadside. I was in there from 10++am & when i was done with it, out from the big crowd around 12.30pm .... i was sweating ! There were so many books...i just didn't know what book to choose from. However, the crowd there were really true buyers ... many of them carrying a box each & have a number of books inside !!!! Who said msian don't read !?!?! After more than an hour of browsing, i began to feel ashame becoz i seem to be the only one not carrying a single book yet....i told myself i should not walk out from this warehouse empty handed !

I consider myself a reader..ahem...used to be...although currently not reading as much as previously. I like fictions, especially suspend & criminal-like novel. My 'problem' when comes to spending on books are: (i) price - i just cannot bring myself to buy too expensive book unless i really really want to read it ! (ii) storage - i cannot simply buy any number of books as my house doesn't have a proper book shelf to house books ! Ya, i envy those who can collect all books they like & read them later; they must have a big book shelf !

On the last 1 hour, i managed to get a number of books....to be precise actually all are children books :) I have spent $109 at the end of my browsing :)

2007's CNY

2007-02-23T11:10:00.000+08:00

Once a year the big CNY FESTIVE came...and over ....
Once a year everyone balik kampung to pay visit to all the relatives, cousins, nephews, nieces,.....

Traffic jam is the same ... if you chose the wrong timing to travel on the road.
Kampung is still the same... same old house, old beds, a lot of mosquitoes (!), gate can safely unlock .....

The differences are:
- It rained ! CNY is always hot like oven in kampung, but, this year it was not as hot as previous years...and it rained !
- Uncles & Aunties are all around, but obviously older; mostly are retirees now ...
- Only few cousins are around, some have married & hence visiting in-laws in other places.
- Meals preparation - we tried to make it as simple as possible; we got to feed for more than 30 ppl .... thanks to all the aunties, 'sin ku le' !

The start of 2007

2007-01-27T18:20:00.000+08:00

Time flies ...... the first month of 2007 almost ending & CNY is just around the corner.
With no special expectation I'm entering into this new year. What I've noticed is that since 9/11, every year what brought us into the new year were tragedies, more tragedies.
What can man do to lesser God's wrath on earth? Thank God in these midst of tragedies I've God. It would be meaningless to continue life on earth if we do not have God in us.

Let's not forget to give thanks to God even a small little thing; as all that we have if is not from the mercy & grace from God, we would not be here now.

New Year, New Creation ?

2007-01-07T18:54:00.000+08:00

Time FLIES! New year is not as excited as when you're a kid. What 'New Year' actually means to a grown up? For me:

A year older ... hopefully wiser too!
Thank God for His mercy & grace that have been with me in the past & bringing me into a new year
An excuse to make new resolution, set new objectives/goals, to start a new me
Clean up wardrobe eg let go of clothes that have been hanging there for years & not wearing it once!

That's all ! Strange isn't it? It's so few ..... reason being knowing that there's no point making any 'new promises' but have no determination in fulfilling :) Every year is the same for me now. What important ... i tell myself .... every minute & moment one have one must cherish it & live the fullest & as best as one can !

Friends, HAPPY NEW YEAR !

Blessed 2006 Christmas!

2007-01-07T18:05:00.000+08:00

I have just passed a wonderful & meaningful Christmas :) Reason ? All the siblings managed to gather (for the first time since ??? ) together and with all the little ones :) It was really fun & am so glad that we make it !

Gifts!

2006-12-17T18:50:00.000+08:00

It's the happy season of the year again !!! Regardless of what religion one is, everyone seems busy 'preparing' & 'going to celebrate'!! As a Christian, this is a day reminding me the true meaning of THE DAY!

This period also a time u see the nicest decoration being put up at various malls & key venues. It's also the best time (at least to me) to shop:) All things seem so pretty & too good not to buy them! I've reason to shop & buy as I like to take this opportunity to get something for my dear family members :) I've my 'headache' moment as we dont live together & hence it's really "challenge"; challenge becoz i would like to give them the best gifts of the year & hope that they will remember the moment & who has given to them :)

Furious!

2006-12-17T18:40:00.000+08:00

I'm not sure which word is more appropriate to describe my 'anger'...really really angry me!
What's that all about ? It's a stupid incident happened in office. 'Stupid'....because i dont own the company and knew it was useless to get angry & yet i just cant help it!!!! The worst was that i was furious for a few days !!!! Dunno how many precious cells i've killed ! Dont u think i'm stupid & a big fool !!!

I've been hot temper since i dunno-when. As i get older, my temper doesnt seems to 'tame down' !?!?!? I admit i'm not a forgiving person...sorry Lord. It is sooooooo hard to forgive & forget. Deep down i knew i MUST change this sinful attitude.....but it's soooooooo difficult!

May God help me !

Blame

2006-11-18T16:40:00.000+08:00

Blaming....pointing finger to others ....... 'Lai' (cantonese) ..... is our culture that have also indirectly (or directly) teaching our younger generations. U dont believe that ??? See .......

CCTV focusing on a lady's journalist thigh in an assembly meeting ......
'Lai' -> the journalist shouldn't wear too 'sexy' ?!?!?!?

Women gotten themself raped ....
'Lai' -> must be wearing 'too little' & exposing 'too much' .....

Being snatched ...
'Lai' -> shouldn't walk alone, shouldn't carry handbag, not enough security force....

Certain group of ppl not up to expected par level....
'Lai' -> not being taken care of (discriminate) ....

Town council who built mansion without permit ....
'Lai' -> archirtect fault ?! feng shui ?! got a big family to support ..??

Will you accept your children's "reasons" this way ....

Why you steal money?
You didn't give me enough $$; i need hp, new clothes, social....

Why you peep your friend's sister showering?
Who ask her to wear too 'sexy'?? Not my fault ...

Aren't you suppose to do your study instead of watching TV?
You shouldn't have TV here in the first place ...

(cantonese) "lai de jiau lai" -> if you can blame, blame !!!

MsiaPolitians

2006-11-11T17:22:00.000+08:00

To our very dear & paling berhormat menteri2 & datuk2,

Msia has been successfully achieved to worldwide stardom, thanks to all the very in-house local scandals & gossip2. Msia manages to create a very unique nation image that will give rest of nations puzzle & amaze that msia indeed a true msia-boleh-spirit! Thanks to our model-leadership by our elected datuks and menteris, who not only show a 'good' example and prove that msian has the power to turn black to white and yet still have many supporters ! While our neighbour countries busy with plans & strategies of making their countries greener, better transportations, economy boosting approaches.... msia is showing its unique approach of promoting for next year tourism year! Well, well, well,..... shall we applaud to our leaders ?

Spore trip

2006-10-27T21:10:00.000+08:00

I've recently made a trip to spore to visit my little niece, nephew, brother & sisters. Somehow, the minute when the bus leave johor & head into spore, u feel the change immediately. Suddenly what appeared in your view become so orderly, less polluted air and less cars. I feel calm & peace.

It is not fair to compare msia & spore; msia is just too big. It probably fairer to compare spore vs kl. I cant help but have to compare the two cities, so near yet so far .....

When i reached spore harbourfront station (this place is new to me), i have no problem at all to find my way to smrt (btw there's mrt nearby this bus stop). There have signs clearly point you to where u looking for. It was quite a distance walk but i have no sweat (literaly) in finding the mrt. Now, do think you can find your way if you're first-time landed at this place called pudu station, and wish to walk to the nearest lrt station ?

The smrt took me to serangoon station where my brother waiting for me there. From there we took a 10 minutes walk to his hdb flat house. The 10 minutes walk - i was walking on the walking-path all the way from the station to his flat. It was such a nice & comfortable walk, no lubang-lubang here & there, no black-smelly-smoke blowed to your face, no worry about snatch thief...i have a peaceful walk. Now, do you think u can have a nice-and-safe-walking-on-proper-path to say from kelana jaya station to kelana puteri (my condo house) ?

Whenever we go places in spore, we have to take bus & mrt. U normally need not wait for more than 10 minutes for any bus. Any bus will bring you to main bus station & mrt. U can share using the same card for mrt & bus, top-up any amount at any station. There's no need to slot card through the entrace gate to mrt or machine in the bus; what u do is just flag the card to the entrace point for both into mrt & on bus, with a 'dee' sound u are through. Now, i think we still have to use coins for the bus & a separate card for the lrt..... i'm msia will cathch up using this technology soon (hopefully). Not sure abt you, i will avoid taking bus in kl.

This round i didn't do so much of shopping & eating out in spore. kl main shopping malls are actuallly not bad. Food wise, of course spore can't beat kl !But, can still find good food in spore..

hmmmm...... overall, when 1 m in spore, i cant help but just wonder why our msia planning can be that far (standard) away from spore ? i know msia is a 'big' country & more population, but, if we just look at one main city where so much money have been invested into development, why, why is that it just can't be slightly better ???? maybe (definitely) this is call "mis-management"!

Is there any better explanation???

Risk of Emotional Attached

2006-10-20T16:31:00.000+08:00

I've heard for the second time about the risk of 'emotional attached' between opposite gender. The speaker has commented that affairs arise for married couples most of the time started from the thought of 'insignificant emotional attachment'. What it means is that, a married man/woman shares his/her thoughts/emotions to another opposite gender; treating the opposite gender friend as his/her close good friend who can share everything with (instead his/her own spouse).

The other speaker who also happen to share the same view, in which i have shared under 'Affairs proofing marriage'.

Both have 'warned' that never even dine alone with opposite gender; this warning applies to pastors as well.

Hmmm......nowadays we are too casual about relationship. I kind of agreed to their comments on this; most of the time, we can't deny that an affairs started from some very insignificant actions, gesture...even friendship (as what we thought).

So, married man & woman, beware ok ?!?!?!

Immune

2006-10-11T18:14:00.000+08:00

My friend just poseted her comments on something appeared in newspaper recently: a child star got pregnant & felt very proud of it, another robbery incident happened, a maid try to capture her sicked famous employer...what has this world gone into ? It's crazy ! I have read about these and never have the thought of pen it down of how i felt....i have no feeling ! Gosh ! I have gone immune with all these negative and sick society !!! This is bad man ! When a person gets immune with the happening surrounding, what does this means ah ??!?!?!?! I come to realize my heart / feeling towards this society, country have totally been discouraged & I have given up hope that it will become better ..... how ah ?

My dream

2006-09-29T18:09:00.000+08:00

One of my friend recently set off to work in Saudi. He is in his 40, married with 3 childrens. It's his first permanent oversea job.

I dreamt my whole life to be able to work in oversea ! How 'glamorous' just by telling your friends u r working in xxx country !!! I have all the criteria needed: single, no commitment, adaptable (i think), like to travel, independent....but, i just don't have that luck. Is it 'luck' that bring one to achieve one's dream like mine ? I keep pondering why .........

I'm taking some 'actions' now trying to fulfill my 'working oversea' dream. I'm into my second-half-life-time. If I don't do something now, i'm afraid i will be regretting when getting older ........

Having said that, God is very kind to me :) I have opportunity to travel to countries/cities like: UK (London, Scotland, etc), France (Paris), German, Italy, Holland, Switzeland, Austria, Greece, US, Canada, Bruinei, Northern Thai and of course Singapore :) I hope & plan to go more places .. if God wills.

Aged

2006-09-21T12:16:00.000+08:00

I have a habit of reading book(s) before go to bed. I used to read until late night & have to tell myself to stop & continue next day...the more i read the more exciting i got & wanted to know the ending! But now, sign.............., i don't have to tell myself to put down book on hands, because after reading for less than 1/2 hour, my eye lids automatically shutdown & i start to 'fishing' !!! Sign .......... sign because that is the symptom of old age.

I still like to read. But, i tend to choose books that are 'lesser with words' and with bigger font print !!! That is another old age symptom....from short sighted vision, i think i'm advancing to long sighted ......... soooon !!!!

I wonder what's the next symptom i will be getting ...???? Scary at times, but, I will just leave it God & pray that I will age gracefully & usefully (i hope not asking too much). I can understand now why especially some celebrities went thru facial surgery or spent a fortune just trying to get back the old youthful self. Sometimes, when i looked at the mirror, and when nowadays almost everybody greeted me as 'aunty'.... i knew my look is no longer youthful. A bit sad ..... but ........ have to face it right ?! Most importantly, i think, is one's heart. You will feel younger if you feel that you are still young :)

I will tell myself I'm still young, single & available - the most precious treasure i have & i should live the fullest everyday :)

No self control

2006-09-08T14:57:00.000+08:00

I got hooked to korean & japanese series these days since i have bought a dvd player. I've not had any player until now....yeah, i'm that backward u see. One of the main reason i dont buy a player and not subscribing Astro, because I knew i will get hook to TV :) That's me !! I like watching any good series, and u know, there're so many "good" attractive shows these days that u just can't resist ! I have made a good decision of not having any player ............... till now......

Not sure if 'avoiding' is a good way of 'self- control' ? I tend to 'avoid' things, event, people that i dislike, that i think my 'bad-me' will appearing. The Bible has highlighted the needs & important of 'self control', e.g.:

Do not deprive each other except by mutual consent and for a time, so that you may devote yourselves to prayer. Then come together again so that Satan will not tempt you because of your lack of self-control. 1Corinthians 7:5

Now the overseer must be above reproach, the husband of but one wife, temperate, self-controlled, respectable, hospitable, able to teach, 1 Timothy 3:2

...there're many more verses besides the above mentioned.

With the player i had now, i have borrowed from friends/colleagues many vcd/dvd movies that i have missed; all these were queue up & will occupy my after-office times at home. I have put aside my assignments (that i need to do) & books (that i should be reading).

I need to gain back my self-control !

Affairs proofing your marriage

2006-08-12T14:18:00.000+08:00

Recently someone close to me is in a divorcing state; the cause is adultery.
In today's society, divorce, adultery, child out of wed lock, one night stand ...etc are nothing new even to once upon a time conservative-chinese. We're really in a unhealthy society.
I have recently attended a sermon & the speaker has shared about relationship issues that also hit among Christians. He has pointed out 8 aspect to 'affairs proof' & I would like to share with you all:

Matthew 5: 27 - 34

(1) Don't Start Anything
- eg eye contact, body language/contact
(2) Listen to your spouse's advice (Proverbs 6: 27-29)
- women has an instinct that is born with it, listen to your wife's 'warning'/'reminding' /'nagging' far before anything starts
(3) Tell on the other person
- talk to your spouse, do not hide
(4) Don't spend time alone with the opposite sex (never counsel 1-1 for opposite sex)
- eg do not dine alone with him/her
(5) Drink from your own spring (Proverbs 5: 15, 1Corintians 7: 2-5)

(6) Be aware of emotional adultery

(7) Get control of your thought life (before any adultery starts, it starts in thought)

(8) Recognize that you'll get caught

*We need to be faithful because our God is a faithful God*

*You have to decide now before facing any attemptions*

Work Grieve

2006-08-05T01:18:00.000+08:00

Not sure if everyone go through the same work experiences as me:

During the 1st year:
Fresh out from uni...so eager & so curious abt working life...i just can't wait to be part of the blue collar group! What is money ? Most important is to learn as much as u can !

Employer: Are u more interested in application or network area?
Me: I'm not sure....can i learn both? (apa pun mau in those days !)
Employer: Do u think u can work under stress?
Me: I don't think this is a problem! (ha! got u now! this staff can multi-tasks !)

During 2nd year:
Employer: I'm satisfy with your performance, although u are new, u have proven a fast learner..... keep up with your good work (good work means more works !)

During 3rd year:
Friend: hooi! want to join my company or not? they are paying $8000 for someone who know unix!
Me: I'm not qualify lah ! $8000 ? Sure or not? I knew very basic only ...
Friend: One of the new hire knew nothing & can get $8000...why not u come & try ...
Me: hmmm..... no lah...i still want to learn a bit more of what i'm doing now... (come to think of it now, i can only tell myself that i was stupid !)

During 4th year:
Me: Boss, i think i deserve a promotion & increment as I've proven myself & have ....blah blah blah... (getting smarter a bit now...u gotto fight for yourself)

During 5th year:
I want promotion & increment...... (where is my rewards ?)

During 6th year:
i had enough of issues....i'm tire of doing the same projects....i want to see 'other world'.... ('rebellion started a bit too late...)..so i resigned

During 7th year:
I was carried the title of 'manager' now...... but how come i seems to do the same thing as i was not a 'manager' ???? (betul betul manager ke ?!?!?)

During 8th year:
i was a project manger cum system analyst cum system designer cum technical writer cum tester cum .................... (why my manager role cannot be as 'easy' as other manager ? i thought being a manager i could just instruct ..?!?!? hmmmm........ )

During 9th year:
i was a "in-dispensable" employee to my company !!! i had the impression i was .......... management theme was 'To growth together with the company' (meaning that you shall stay with the company even if the company is in trouble! Reward later ....)

Come to the 10th year:
i realized that i didn't own the company & i'm dispensable (no staff is indispensable in this world!).... why i have to work so hard ? I resigned without securing next job....... i have a wonderful 6 month break !!!!!

Car Accident

2006-07-14T19:59:00.000+08:00

This morning while driving to work, not far after leaving my house i banged into a Kancil. Luckily the Kancil only has very minor scratches, and the driver was a young gentle lady....whew ! I hope she would not call me & later ask for compensation.....as i'm really broke these days :(

This is my first car accident, after driving for almost 12 years. Thinking back, really thank God for His protection and His grace for me. I consider myself a 'quite' careful driver, but.... sometimes i really impatient and can be quite a rude driver. As the sayings go: driver behind wheel turn into a devil !!!! How true !!!! From a timid driver in the beginning, now I'm no longer the timid one !!! Behind the wheel, sometimes i speed (a little bit), sometimes i swear & curse to others, sometimes (errr...quite a number of times) i don't give in to other drivers - all the kiasi & kiasu attitudes all surfaced !!!

Sign...... i dunno how much i have to spend on this old car of mine again ....... to change or not to change my car ?????? How nice if KL can have a good public transport... i wish i don't have to drive.

Well, after this incident, i think, i hope i will be more careful & slow down a bit & give in a bit & gentle a bit ....while behind the wheel.

Food poisoning

2006-07-04T19:02:00.000+08:00

I was having food poining last Wed.....have vomitted maybe 5 times and a few times of diarrhoea. I didn't see a doctor until after maybe 20 hours later after i called to inform my sister:
The sick: i got diarrhoes since early morning & non stop vomitting ...
Sister: U see doctor or not?
The sick: no...
Sister: What? U mean u haven't seen any doctor till now !?!?
The sick: oh...i feel a bit better. This morning still got dizziness but now seems ok...but i just vomit again after taking porridge ....maybe it will go away shot while....
Sister: U thought what ah !!!!! Food poisoning means got POISON !!! U thought u go pang sai & vomit all those posion will come out & u will be good in no time !?!?!? U siau ah ! Go see doctor lah ! Your vomit won't stop one ...
The sick: errr.....maybe tomorrow...
Sister: U must go see doctor one...don't play-play....it's poison ...... blah blah blah

I finally went to see doctor after talking to my sister. Luckily i had a cousin just stay near by & they have accompanied me to look for a 24 hour clinic. True enough, after taking the doctor's medicine....whew ! i stop vomit & the next day back to work (although felt a bit weak). Hee ! Hee ! U see.... i am one seldom fall sick whole year round & just don't like to take any pills.... Sometimes, you try to heal yourself but you can't & just have to leave it to the expert:) And...it is wise to do so as early as possible before any damage is done .....

Blog-Visit

2006-06-14T14:36:00.000+08:00

I always look forward for new update from my friend & sister blogs. Although both (err...actually 2 of them only as of now) are mothers, and i am not, i just enjoy their stories ! Both of them can write very well literally, 1 in english & i in mandarin, and they way they unfold their thoughts were just so amusing :) So, friend..... write more okie ! There will people like me appreciate & looking forward your stories !!!!

missing

2006-06-06T21:39:00.000+08:00

oh dear ..... i have been 'missing' for more than a month..but nobody will notice...

i have visited many blogs and just marvel how people can write such interesting life stories ...and yet i just couldn't ...sign.....

is it my life too boring ? or i am too lazy ? or ... let's face it i am NOT CREATIVE !!!!! This has too be because of my brought up (i can only blame on this!) !

Since young i am one that like to read....i had been reading a lot love stories fiction when i am in primary, then kungfu fictions while i am in secondary, then turn to english novel ..... i do read a lot...but...how come when come to writing my mind just blank, or, what come out from my writing just not as interesting ??????? sign...........

New friends

2006-04-29T01:30:00.000+08:00

I signed up the TESOL course without knowing what to expect. It turned out to be fun and very fruitful :) There're 6 of us registered in this April batch class, and 2 ex-students as helpers to our lecturer. The 6 ladies (yes, all ladies in this batch !) are:

myself - full time worker in IT industry
sharon - part time admin staff, a mother of 2 young girls (age 5 & below)
jean - an english teacher, single
ruth - an engligh teacher, a mother of 2 grown up girls (age 19 & above)
gwen - an ex-malaysian now canadian secretary, coming to msia holiday, sister to our lecturer, a mother of three grown up
yin-li - a young single english teacher who graduate in AUS with English Literature

All of us didn't know what to expect when sign-up for this course, but with 1 same goal - learn to become a English teacher. We've spent 60 hours during the 5 days classes, from not knowing each other, we are all friends now :)

Come to think of it, when is the last time i make a new friend (excluding colleagues) ??? Hmmmm....i cannot recall if any. I'm glad I've made new friends :)

80/20

2006-04-27T15:01:00.000+08:00

In TESOL class, 80/20 rule was introduced. I always presume that as a teacher, you got to really well prepare what you want to teach (talk) within an 1 hour period of time given to you in a class; I believe many people has the same thought as I am. However, to my surprise & joy, a teacher should only talk 20% & let your students do the 80% talking !!! That's what this 80/20 rule is about in TESOL :)

Come to think of it, I'm wondering if I'm one like to always talk & talk & never give chance to my friends, family members, colleagues.... to have the same opportunity to do their talking ???!!! If the answer is 'yes', I think that's really inconsiderate of me ! (i hope i'm not like that !) People tend to talk more, worse still - more about themself, and tend to listen less :( Hence, i'm reminding myself from now on, I'm going to adopt a 50/50 rule with friends, 60/40 rule with family members, 80/20 rule when I'm a teacher :) What about you ?

"All hard work brings a profit, but mere talk leads only to poverty." Proverbs 14:23

TESOL

2006-04-25T23:14:00.000+08:00

I finally attended & completed my 60 hours TESOL in-class course ! It's really an achievement for me, after 13 year of working, that was the first course I took after I left my uni !!!!! Hee ! Hee ! pai seh .......

The classes were scheduled from Wed to Sun, 6.30pm to 10.30pm on working days & 9am to 7.30pm on Sat & Sun. After the 2nd night, I already felt so tired...physically !!! Gosh ! I think I probably have made the right decision for not taking any courses while working .... how can those ppl actually can take a 3 year MBA while working ?!?!???!?! I'll be dead man !

Anyway, the TESOL classes were really fun indeed ! I'm glad I've signed up ..... although the decision I made for this was quite sudden :) Bravo for myself !!! Besides the knowledge I gained, I've also made a few new friends ! And, guess what ? We're going to have our first gathering tomorrow at our tutor's house !!!

If you're interested in knowing more about TESOL....keep watching.....

Car service#2

2006-04-12T18:16:00.000+08:00

I sent my car for 2nd service yesterday. The cost come to $795 !!!!! Sign ........
If I'm sick & been advice to do a MRI which will cost abt $800-$1000, i will drag myself to go through this process & will definitely look for other 'solution' eg look for a chinese sin-sai which is much more cheaper. But, if my car is 'sick' and needs to replace its body parts, i got no choice but have to pay for that kind of money if I still want my 'old legs' rather than getting a 'new legs'. Sign.....
I tell myself to be thankful that although the car with such old age & although its body parts have been broken down, i'm still in one piece today. I've to give thanks to God for His protection & that I'm capable to pay for that kind of money. I will only have to deal with that sum of money LATER & not now. Anyway, it is my "first love" & I've to take care of it, right ?!?!
U see, my 'love' is very sick...and it needs 3rd service .............sob,sob,sob.....

Car service

2006-03-28T21:39:00.000+08:00

I always drag myself to send my car for service - reason being scare that it will cost me a bomb!
Today i finally send my 10+ year car for service, 1st time this year after more than 6 months of last service (i know i should have do so earlier). The bill turned out to be $500++ !!!!! Sign ..... and it's not the end of it, i have to send it for another major service sooner - for some problem that i dont know how to describe it here :( Looks like it's time i consider to change for a new car...

Lazy !!!

2006-03-28T15:36:00.000+08:00

I'm so lazy these days !!! Althogh job stability is shaking, i'm just too lazy to act a bit more aggressive ?!?! Maybe age is catching up ? Afraid of rejection ? If this situation happened 10 years back, i will be vey worried & have sleepless nights, and probably will grab whatever opportunity on hand. Now...... i have been rejecting, delaying, and let the days pass waiting .... waiting ... waiting for ?????

Back to normal

2006-03-19T23:17:00.000+08:00

Today my sisters & her 2 daugthers have gone back to NT. My house started to quiet down. Mum has washed & cleaned the house while I drop dead on my bed & have slept for 3 hours ! Tomorrow I'll be back to work...there go my holiday & I've to be back to the real world - work, work, work....and continue to look for new job opportunity. Sign.....

Back to normal

2006-03-17T23:49:00.000+08:00

I've taken a week off just to accompany my sister & her 2 daughters that I have not seen for about a year ! Luckily I've the luxury of taking off...in which is not a very good sign. Anyway, it's really a pleasure for me to meet espcially my little niece who is now 17 mth old (the last time i saw her she was just 1-2 mth old !). Time flies, flies, flies .... she's now a cute little 1.5 year old who love to smile a lot, like a make cheecky face, like food, and like to make a lot of noices! Since they're here, my quiet home has been turning to a noisy home :) From early morning we all have been waken up by the little one who likes to call 'kakak', 'mi', ...... there go my beauty sleep ......

Waiting time

2006-03-07T13:48:00.000+08:00

Looking at that 99% of the existing colleagues looking for other job opportunity, I naturally join the force as well. For me, I think I've spent enough time in this company and it's time for me to move on. However, naturally, not denying that with my current age (?) I do have fears that I will be difficult to find my 'dream' job .... compare to the younger ones. All that have left are able to, somehow, found a better paid job & still happily staying in that same company. The moral of the left-over staffs are low. As a leader to my team members, I dont know what good advices can I give them: ask them to stay or (not stopping) to go ???? Sign ....

Pray that God will open door for me & help me to wait patiently .......

Children

2006-03-05T23:19:00.000+08:00

Arent't children adorable ? I know it's not easy to raise a child of your own (luckily I dont have to :) But they're soooo cute & nice to play with when they're small !

What is the reason that a wife cannot work ?

2006-03-03T09:17:00.000+08:00

I cannot believed that in this 21st century, there are men that not allowing their wife to work ! I can accept that if the man is very rich, he needs his wife as a PA or to bring her out regularly to socialite - in this case the wife actually is 'working' for him, or that he has many children that are still very young & very difficult to manage, or that they cannot afford to have maid/baby sitter. In whatever circumstances, if the wife hershelf is not willing to work or opt not to work, then that's ok. But, if the wife is educated & wants to work, why on earth the husband protest ? Does he has the right to do that ?!?!?! Even more so, he cannot give a good reason of not allowing his wife to do !?!?!? Why ? Why ? Why ???? I respect the wife even more so when she is willing to give in to her husband even though she has strong desire to work again.

Looking back (and forth), it is really not easy of being a WIFE, a MOTHER, maybe a GRANDMOTHER, a MOTHER-IN-LAW ....... never regret that i'm still single now :) In this context, i love the western culture of human right & freedom. Yes, I believe every individual must have his/her own freedom to do what they want - as long as they please God ! One shouldn't bond the other out of selfishness.

So, think twice, tri-wise, and x10 times before you decide that's the one you really really want to spend your life with !

It's so demotivated !

2006-02-28T18:39:00.000+08:00

Well, i'm not a CEO or COO or Sales Manager..BUT...if the boss is soooo skeptical about a small simple pontential project...and trying to make money out of it...and dont have a product or reference site ....yet, again, want to make a profit out of it ...... HOW TO DO BUSINESS LIKE THAT ??!??!?!?!?!??!?!?

I really feel so dissapointed & demotivated by this ...this incident make me even more want to get OUT of this company !!!!!! If i have a job offer now i will quit immediately !!!!!!! Whoever has quited & left & going to leave have make the RIGHT move ! Only those that stay back is pityful !!!!?!??!?!?!

God, help me !!!!

I know !

2006-02-27T22:00:00.000+08:00

Hmmmm.... i figure out how i can make my blog useful for me :) Tell me what u think if u come 'visit' my blog, ok ?!

First blog

2006-02-27T18:12:00.000+08:00

Blog ? Blog ! What's the use of this ? Hmmmm.... let me think abt what i can share you gals & guys ?!?!?
Hopefully this blog of mine can be full of fun & informative as well :)