Work Grieve

Not sure if everyone go through the same work experiences as me:

During the 1st year:
Fresh out from uni...so eager & so curious abt working life...i just can't wait to be part of the blue collar group! What is money ? Most important is to learn as much as u can !

Employer: Are u more interested in application or network area?
Me: I'm not sure....can i learn both? (apa pun mau in those days !)
Employer: Do u think u can work under stress?
Me: I don't think this is a problem! (ha! got u now! this staff can multi-tasks !)

During 2nd year:
Employer: I'm satisfy with your performance, although u are new, u have proven a fast learner..... keep up with your good work (good work means more works !)

During 3rd year:
Friend: hooi! want to join my company or not? they are paying $8000 for someone who know unix!
Me: I'm not qualify lah ! $8000 ? Sure or not? I knew very basic only ...
Friend: One of the new hire knew nothing & can get $8000...why not u come & try ...
Me: hmmm..... no lah...i still want to learn a bit more of what i'm doing now... (come to think of it now, i can only tell myself that i was stupid !)

During 4th year:
Me: Boss, i think i deserve a promotion & increment as I've proven myself & have ....blah blah blah... (getting smarter a bit now...u gotto fight for yourself)

During 5th year:
I want promotion & increment...... (where is my rewards ?)

During 6th year:
i had enough of issues....i'm tire of doing the same projects....i want to see 'other world'.... ('rebellion started a bit too late...)..so i resigned

During 7th year:
I was carried the title of 'manager' now...... but how come i seems to do the same thing as i was not a 'manager' ???? (betul betul manager ke ?!?!?)

During 8th year:
i was a project manger cum system analyst cum system designer cum technical writer cum tester cum .................... (why my manager role cannot be as 'easy' as other manager ? i thought being a manager i could just instruct ..?!?!? hmmmm........ )

During 9th year:
i was a "in-dispensable" employee to my company !!! i had the impression i was .......... management theme was 'To growth together with the company' (meaning that you shall stay with the company even if the company is in trouble! Reward later ....)

Come to the 10th year:
i realized that i didn't own the company & i'm dispensable (no staff is indispensable in this world!).... why i have to work so hard ? I resigned without securing next job....... i have a wonderful 6 month break !!!!!